- I have had continuous strange encounters with people and scenarios where I have the sense that opposition is very strong. Being the analytical and spiritual person I am, I have to discount it as normal warfare that we all experience in occasional "seasons" of refining and growth. It it interesting how what I am seeing and hearing from even familiar people is coming across as malice and offensiveness. It's almost like in a movie, where aliens have taken over and people are way out of character in habit and conversation. From this I concluded that it is a stratagem of the dark angel. The reason is because it is not rational, and my heightened paranoia is not founded with these people-- or IS it? I may be looking at this all wrong, and God may actually have me in a season of pruning others while learning more about myself and relationships. Satan has run out of ways to discourage me, so playing Jedi mind tricks is the newest challenge. I have to be careful of not dissolving the fruitful relationships amid the trickery. That is soooo the point of this, I know. So as always, I have to modify my spiritual tactics in relation to my opponent. The truth will ultimately win out as to what all this is, and means. It has not been fun though, because it's been a distraction and new territory for me--having to watch my back and pay attention to the intentions of others so closely. Sure, I've always had my normal share of naysayers since childhood; nothing new and that won't stop. However, the dynamics now are a little more rough during THIS test. Hmmmmm. Anyway, it has yielded benefits. Within the last month or so, at least two people have been confirmed as being dishonest with me on major points. It was done purely by accident too, so that says something. What is done in the dark always eventually comes to light. It has been years since my close encounters with each them, and within 2 weeks the dishonesty of both was revealed to me. There ya go; confirmation that they are no longer in my life for a reason. I did not understand the "whys' for so long , but now I do. Thank you Lord for protecting and removing me when I didn't even realize I was the winner.
- I have been on a self-structured workout plan and have changed my eating habits for over a month now. The results are slow, but it is working. I have lost pounds. Yaaaay! Exercising with consistency and eating better are SO hard for me. This is one reason I have not lost my newly gained pounds over the yeas. I am trying to keep it fresh by mixing up my activities and not depriving myself with food. Control is my goal. Hey, that rhymes! I am grateful that my employer has provided, at no cost to me, a personal trainer and a nutritionist for 9 weeks. This is a great addition to my outside efforts, which includes Weight Watchers and joining a local gym. The triangulated resources will hopefully curtail the propensity to get lazy and fail. Wish me luck on this. I have done this time and time again, but I really think I'm serious this time. A couple of different episodes, dissatisfaction with health, along with getting to a point of a less than optimal image are catalysts for making a hard change. We all know where we are suppose to be and CAN be, and when you don't recognize self anymore or become ashamed of your outcomes-- and that's so far from my normal persona as a naturally confident and attractive woman-- it's time to get up and move! I put time and energy into everything else, but I have not done that with my "temple." I WILL be a hot, healthy, and hated mid-forty-year-old woman! LOL! I still look young, have brains, talent, gifts, good character, and God also blessed me with a body. I just have to go back and find it at the age I lost it! LOL!
- I am so pleased that I see progress in ridding myself of some debt! Last year I resolved to work on that for 2011. I am on a mission this year, and I have already handled three financial goals! Baby steps. I may be tight on funds each pay day, but I have something to show for it and know where my income is going-- and WHY. Everyone can't say that. I am excited about the next two major bills I plan to have paid off at the beginning of next year. If God provides the opportunity to do it sooner, I will. Meanwhile, I am being realistic and dividing & conquering. All the while, I continue to give my offering and tithe. I know where my bread and butter come from each pay day.
It's going to be a great spring and summer. Let's see what unfolds during these wonderful seasons. I have a private hope that I'd like to see come to fruition. Let's see if God says the same. It would be great to be able to pen the outcome!
